It's 2010. Wow. How on earth did that happen? I know 2009 was tough for a lot of people, and I had a lot of tough moments, but overall, I'm not cursing '09.
Every minute of this year, I was a mom. Whoa. And that has been so fulfilling and amazing that it overshadows much of the difficulty that 2009 presented.
I haven't lost the rest of the baby (toddler) weight, I didn't complete my Project 365 (a photo a day for a year), and I'm sure a lot of other things fell through the cracks. But I went back to work at the beginning of the year, terrified about how I would manage any kind of balance -- even more terrified after one-third of my coworkers were laid off -- and I feel like I found some sort of equilibrium. At the very least, in 2009 I think I found a way to appreciate the moments I was given more than I ever have before.
What else happened in 2009? Well, I did a half-marathon -- not my best effort, but I finished and I raised more money for the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society. I did a bunch more photo shoots, some for charity even, and I learned so, so much and got a lot of creative fulfillment out of it, too. I became food editor. I worked a lot. I blogged a lot. I gave out lots of hugs and got a bunch, too. I stood up to Isaac's doctor after he was in the hospital for two weeks with no end in sight, and we finally got our little guy home -- and without the feeding tube the doctor insisted at that time that he needed. (Turns out he didn't.)
What am I looking for out of 2010? Well, today, I'd like to see a Ducks win in the Rose Bowl! That would rock! For the rest of the year, I'm going to take it a little bit at a time. I'm restarting Project 365, though. And I'd like to break through my mental block against running. (I don't know how I've maintained it through training for three half-marathons and a full marathon, but I totally have.) I want to shoot more portrait sessions, to learn more every day. I want to keep appreciating every moment I have with my guys -- and make more of them.
The past couple of weeks, I've managed to get home in time for dinner a few times (that is pretty rare most of the time). I think that needs to happen a lot more in 2010.
Also, I need to blog here more. A lot more. I am going to try to figure out a way to get my Facebook statuses from the past year that relate to Isaac and compile them because that is where most of the record of this year of his life has ended up. That's too ephemeral for me!
Happy 2010, everybody!
And GO DUCKS!